As I swam in the cool lake bordering
the Democratic Republic of the Congo, I looked at the volcanoes
surrounding me. A goofy grin plastered across my face and I let the
moment sink in. Yo, I thought to myself, I am in Lake Kivu! Just a
year ago I was swimming in Lake Superior in Duluth, Minnesota. If you
ever took a dip in this icy Great Lake, you would know that swimming
in Lake Superior isn't really swimming, well not for me. The water is
so cold that my legs start to go numb after a minute or so. The only
time I welcome the mind-numbing water is on one of Duluth's rare sun
scorching days. Not only could I actually swim in the warm waters of
Lake Kivu, I could bask in the moment reminiscing.
When I first learned I was selected for
the Rwandan Education Program, I can't lie, I thought I would be
roughing it in a village with no electricity, no running water, and
no friends, but, in reality, living in Rwanda has been pretty great
so far. Now I'm not going to sugar coat things; washing clothes by
hand, cooking on an imbambura (charcoal stove), bathing with a
bucket, and using a latrine hasn't been the easiest thing in the
world, but it certainly wasn't as hard as I imagined. I remember one
day I finally had my amakara (charcoal) delivered and I was so
excited to finally be able to cook myself a meal, something that
brought me joy and comfort in America. My friends knew me as the
person in the group who would go to the farmers' market on the
weekend to buy up all the heirloom tomatoes I could carry so I could
make salsa and gift them to friends and family. If I wasn't at the
farmers' market buying up pesto or learning about a new hybrid
vegetable, I would joyously spend my time cooking whatever creation I
made up that day. Who knew once I moved to Rwanda it would take me
well over two weeks to simply boil water to make rice. The day I had
my amakara delivered I was ready to reclaim my inner chef, so I
assembled all my tools: imbambura, amakara, matches, sticks and
paper, and then I set to work building a fire to cook some rice…
long story short, it didn't happen that night, or the next, or the
next, or the next! Every day that I tried and failed, I felt a little
worse. How in the world was I going to feed myself?! Well, I am so
blessed to have wonderful neighbors who saw me struggling and helped
me countless times. I was also immensely grateful for a man named
Kiza. Kiza is the Fathers' chef and he took me under his wing and
taught me the culinary world of Rwandan food. Every night, I brought
my tools and ingredients, and Top Chef Kiza showed me how to make incredible
dishes, which is a whole other post. Every time we cooked together,
he even surprised me with treats that he wanted me to try. Without
Kiza or my wonderful neighbors, I would be eating amandazi (similar
to doughnuts) and sambusas (triangular shaped dough stuffed with meat and/or potatoes with onions and hot peppers) every night. It's my fault though, I didn't take the
“lighting the imbambura” part of PST seriously enough.
Speaking of PST, I remember a time when
I was bathing at night, something I loved doing back home. In the
States, when hot running water was always at my disposal, showering
at night was my way of unwinding. When I lived in Duluth and my
roommate was away (shout out to Courtney!), I would light my favorite
incense, frankincense, play some Erykah Badu, light some candles, and
treat myself to a steamy Epsom salt bath with a plethora of essential
oils. I would try to read in the bathtub, but most of the time I
would just sit there soaking in the warmth and enjoying my alone
time. In Rwamagana, my host family's bathroom facilities were
outside, separate from the house, no bathtub, just a cement space and
a tin roof. That night I was scrubbing away, covered in soap, when I
heard something scuffle on the tin roof above me. I looked up and saw
a lizard scurry across. Nta kibzao (No problem/worries), I thought to
myself, lizards are chill. I continued scrub-a-dub-dubbing away,
whistling a little tune, and then I heard another scuffle. I looked
up again, thinking I was going to see my new friend, Ms. Lizzy (I
thought of that cool name while whistling), but nope, instead of Ms.
Lizzy, I saw Mr. Rat. Mr. Rat was chasing Ms. Lizzy right above my
naked body covered in soap. When I tell you I screamed bloody murder…
if it wasn't for the soap covering my body I would have ran out that
bathroom completely naked. My host mama (who was outside talking with
a guest at the time) ran over and shouted, “Shewa! Iki (What)?!”
I shouted back, while crouched in the furthest corner of the
bathroom, “Maaaammaaaa!! Imbeba (Rat)!!” By this time, my host
sisters crowded around the bathroom to see what all the fuss was
about. When they heard my reasoning, everyone let out a hearty laugh
and walked away. I made it out alive though.
Each of these moments, whether failing
to light my stove or learning that my one year old sister can chase a
rat away for me, left me feeling so useless, but now that I know that
I am supported, I feel stronger than ever. Now, that I have mastered
the art of lighting and cooking on an imbambura and though I am still
afraid of rats, I know that I can handle it. Not only did my
neighbors help me in my time of need, I know that I am completely
capable of working with the hand that I have been dealt because I am
exactly where I want to be. While swimming in Lake Kivu, which is
only a 4 hour bus ride from my site, I realized that I am here, now,
living my dream and I should accept and embrace every moment. Who
would have thought a year ago, while I was swimming in Lake Superior
in Duluth, Minnesota, that the following year I would have this very
moment in Lake Kivu in Gisenyi, Rwanda?
Sitting in my cubicle at work giggling about Mr. Rat chasing Ms. lizzy. Love your blog and especially your piece on being black in the peacecorp. I wasn't in the peacecorp but stayed in Tanzania for 4 months and it was like I was living my experience all over again. Great blog!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad I can make you giggle in your cubicle Denise :) Thank you for reading and I just posted a new piece about my experience as a black volunteer. Let me know what you think!
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